My chest tightened with the thought that maybe I hadn’t crossed at all. Maybe the shimmer had swallowed me whole and this was all I’d ever have: a void stitched from my own pulse and fear.
I forced myself forward. Each step dragged, the air clutching at my limbs as if weighing who I was before letting me through. My boots found ground that wasn’t ground; shadow dented under my weight and clung, thick as tar. It stretched when I lifted my foot, webbing between me and the dark as if the Veil refused to let go.
Hands pressed at my ankles, tugging, greedy to hold me in. Fingers of shadow slid up my calves, slick and cold, gripping around me. A shudder climbed my spine, but I didn’t let fear reach my legs. I pushed harder, breath tearing through my chest, and ripped free step by step.
And then the Veil released me.
The shadows recoiled in strands that snapped back into the dark. Sound bled back in—a distant hum, low and constant—so different from the hush behind me that I knew I was somewhere else entirely. The shadows here did not move with the light—they clung, stretching long, wrapping close until I could feel them tug against the hem of my coat. In Synnex, the library stacks sometimes breathed with the same pull, shadows gathering at the corners when my thoughts ran too dark.
The hum thickened each time I faltered, pulsing in rhythm with my heartbeat, daring me to break.
Hayat’s voice returned to me in fragments:Don’t waste breath. Watch where the weight falls. Never give your back to the trees.
Kind of hard to manage when you’re surrounded by nothing but trees.
The world here was split open—cliffs and cracks disguised as earth. What looked like level forest floor fractured into sudden drops and knife-thin ridges, caverns hidden beneath slick moss and snow. Every stretch demanded caution, every foothold a test. And yet, the only way forward was through the woods, until at last the trees surrendered to stone and the final climb began—the ascent to Nyxarra’s gates.
The twilight deepened to something like night. My curls clung wet to my cheeks, lashes crusted with frost. Every muscle burned, every joint felt threaded with glass. Still I pressed forward. I could almost hear my mother’s voice on the wind, soft with warning:Some doors should never be opened, Aurelia.
But what choice did I have? Aeryn’s face flashed in my mind—his vacant eyes, the shadow creeping over his smile. I would break every door in this cursed world before I let it keep him.
By the time the ridge curved into a hollow between two boulders, my body screamed for rest. I cleared frost from the stone at my feet and built a fire. A ring of rock, uneven but serviceable. Shelter enough, if the night didn’t turn crueler. My hands shook as I struck flint to steel. The spark caught slow, unwilling, but the fire finally guttered into life. Its smoke tasted resin-bitter, and its light felt thin. Still, I sat close, knees to my chest, dagger loose in one hand.
I had climbed, crawled, bled to get this far, but in the fire’s thin glow, a quieter terror crept in. What if I wasn’t enough? What if I failed him? What if, in trying to save Aeryn, I unraveled piece by piece until there was nothing left of who I was?
And beneath it all lay a quieter, stranger terror: if I saved him—what happened to me then? My life had been shaped around holding him together. Without that… who was left? Who was I outside of being needed? Outside of being strong? I didn’t know. And the not knowing frightened me almost as much as losing him did.
I pushed the fear down, buried it beneath the cold and the hunger and the need to keep going.
The woods whispered just beyond the fire’s glow, the shape of a language I didn’t speak. A lullaby for the unwary, promising that if I drifted too far from wakefulness, they would find their way in and make a home of my silence.
At one point, I glanced west, toward the line of trees where the fire’s reach dissolved, and for a heartbeat I thought I saw movement again. A figure. The outline of someone standing too still. My pulse stuttered. When I snapped my head toward it, there was nothing but fog thickening over the ground. Still, unease curledlow in my gut. The Elders spoke of lands west of Nyxarra once, but they always cut the stories short, voices lowering as if speaking too much might summon them back. Forgotten places. Forgotten gods.
The fire cracked once, then settled into embers. The dark pressed closer, bolder now. I drew my knees tighter, the iron-bite hook clutched across my lap, and fixed my eyes on the dark between the trees.
6
Aurelia
The fire had burneditself down to little more than embers, its thin glow barely holding back the dark. For a moment I thought I’d overslept, that dawn had come and gone without me. I sat up slowly, expecting to feel the weight of eyes on me still. But now… now it was emptier than before.
Above me, the sky held the same dim hue it had since I crossed the Veil—light caught forever between dusk and dawn. Nyxarra’s endless in-between.
I had never felt so alone.
They had warned me this path would eat me alive.
Etherblooms belonged to rumor more than to earth. Born, they said, from Kaerani’s grief—her tears made flesh. Each petal carried divine force, capable of touching what no healer could: the mind. But their gift came at a cost—the mind they mended was never quite the same, and those who took their blessing often lost the very things that made them human. Colette once called itmercy without emotion—healing that hollowedinstead of healed. But whatever the blooms might take, the sickness was already taking more.
I remembered a girl from Synnex, Liora, who came back whispering to shadows that weren’t there. Hollow-eyed. Broken. Others never returned at all.
We read about them in the footnotes of dusty tomes, annotated in red ink by scholars who hadn’t dared venture past Nyxarra’s gates themselves. The details shifted, as stories do. Some claimed they were devoured by the land, others that they joined the creatures haunting the Veil. But every version ended the same way: they sought the Etherblooms, and they paid the price.
Nyxarra was said to be alive, a prison with no visible walls, holding its captives beneath an eternal twilight sky.
And King Talon, its collector of curiosities, did not like to let go of what he considered rare.
I had heard the rumors growing up, the ones my mother told us to ignore. That Talon carved trophies from the bones of the divine. That he bound entire bloodlines to his realm like trinkets on a string—valuable only so long as they served his purpose. That his court was built on the backs of the broken.