“No, I mean, you look...You look amazing. Beautiful. Just like that, dressed my old shirt and your hair all messy. I want to wake up to your face every morning.” I hadn’t meant to say that last part aloud, but too late.
His lips formed a little circle. “Do you really mean that?”
“Yeah, baby, I do. I was thinking that I could switch schools. And go to one closer to you in New York.” I swallowed thickly.“Maybe if Boston drafts me, I won’t sign with them and wait it out. I’m sure a team in New York would want me.”
Reed stared at me for what felt like hours. When it was probably only a matter of seconds. “You can’t do that.”
“Why not? I thought we agreed that we wanted to be together.”
“Cole, I can’t let you give up all your dreams for me. I would hate myself.”
I shook my head. “You’re not asking me. I want to do it. If this thing between us works out the way I want, it just makes sense.”
“Stop it.” He held up a hand. “This is crazy.”
My heart sank. Maybe we weren’t on the same wavelength after all. “I’m sorry?”
“You want to be with me that badly? So much that you’ll give up everything for me? That’s...Why?” Reed’s bottom lip trembled. “Don’t do that. Not for me. I’m not worth it.”
I reached for him and dragged Reed into my lap. I loved how he fit perfectly there. “You’re worth so much more, baby. I would give up everything for you. Besides, I won’t be giving up anything. I’ll just be changing a few things. I’ll hopefully still play in the NHL, just for a different team. You continue your dancing career, and we’ll be unstoppable together.”
“But you want to play for Boston. You’ve always told me that. You can’t change everything because of me. We can make this work in different states. I can move to Boston once I graduate. It’s not that far away. I can drive up to see you every weekend.” Reed’s eyes glittered with tears.
I wiped a tear from his cheek. “You’re going to drive to me every Saturday? Waste your entire weekend just to spend a few minutes with me?”
“Yes, absolutely.” Reed nodded feverishly.
I kissed him softly. “But what if I was five minutes away and we could see one another every single day? No driving required, only walking. Or we could get a place together.”
“Don’t...” He croaked and pushed his head against my shoulder. “You love Boston.”
I hummed in agreement. “That’s true, but I love you more.”
Suddenly Reed was kissing me, his tongue in my mouth, and his hands in my hair. He tugged hard on my curls as he ground down against my already expanding erection. He whimpered when I tried to pry him away, needing to talk to him more about what I wanted to do, and clung to me like a child. Reed’s hands dipped down to my briefs, and he pulled out my cock. He wrapped his palm around me and started to jerk slowly.
“Baby, you don’t...fuck.” My eyes rolled back when I felt Reed’s hot length against mine. I gripped his hips tightly as I fucked up into his fist.
He licked around my lips, then dropped hot kisses against my skin and jawline before he moved to my neck. He sucked lightly on my skin, and I let him, knowing it would leave a bruise that I wouldn’t cover up. The sounds we made were hot and filthy. The room became pungent with the smell of sex and sweat.
“You can’t throw everything away for me,” Reed whispered, his mouth finding mine again. “Please, Cole. I only want you to be happy, and playing for the Terriers is going to do that. We can figure everything else out later.”
I grabbed his chin to keep his eyes on mine. “I’m not throwing anything away. I’m changing my future and the things that mean something. You mean everything to me. I want to be with you.”
Reed’s eyes rolled back, and his cum splashed across my cock as he came. My name came out in a moan as he let go, and I kissed him again, needing to taste those plump, pink lips.My own orgasm hit me by surprise, barreling up like a storm. My vision went white as I joined Reed over the cliff. When I was done, I took a minute to stare at my boyfriend. His eyes were closed, his forehead pressed against mine, and a soft smile caressed his mouth.
“I love you,” Reed murmured. He kept his eyes down, even when I dropped kisses against his face. “I love you, and I don’t want you to give up anything for me. Just promise me you’ll stop and think about it, really think about it, before you go and do something crazy.”
I had already made up my mind. It didn’t matter if he tried to change it. I wasn’t staying in Boston. “I promise.” The lie slipped from my lips easily.
MY BODY WOKE ME BEFOREmy alarm. I was supposed to go with Jax again to the Panther’s arena since it would be only a few more days before the rest of the team was back and he had to go into coach mode. My mind filtered back to last night. Reed was insatiable until we fell into my bed, naked and exhausted, spent from too many orgasms and exploring one another. I reached over to pull Reed’s lean frame against mine only to find his side of the bed empty. I tried to remember if he had told me had to leave early but couldn’t find anything. I sat up, grabbed my briefs from the floor, and went looking for him.
“Reed?” I called out his name, but the house was eerily quiet.
The sun was just starting to come up as I checked every room, only to come up empty-handed. I was about to go find my phone when I caught sight of a figure outside by the water. Without even thinking about it, I rushed outside.
“Baby, what are you doing out here?”
Reed glanced up at me, then his gaze drifted back to the lake. “Just thinking.”