Sure, she’s been legally an adult for three years, but I’m far too old to have approached her before now.Hell, I’m still worried about our age difference.When I’m eighty, she’ll be fifty-eight.
I’m a greedy fucking bastard, though.I won’t give her up.Too late now.Not on my own, at least.I would have to honor her wishes if she changed her mind about me, but unless she looks me in the eye and tells me she doesn’t want to be with an old geezer like me, she’s mine.
I hate that I might cause a rift between Madison and her father.The two of them have always been close.I don’t want her to become estranged from her only blood relative.But the truth is, he’s just her father.He’s not the man she will spend her life sleeping with.He’s not the man who will move heaven and earth to make her smile every day like I will until I take my last breath.
He’s not the man who will give her children and hold her at night.
He’s not the man who will love her the way I will.
All I can do is pray he comes around, even if it takes a while.
I hope we don’t ruin her graduation.I’ve considered not telling him about us until after the ceremony to ensure there’s no unrest that day, but I hate maintaining a lie any longer than necessary.I’ve already been deceiving him for a week.I won’t tell him about us over the phone.It will be much better in person.But fuck, I’m not looking forward to telling my best friend I’m sleeping with his daughter.
There are things I need to do.I need to move more of her stuff into my house.Ourhouse.I need to put a ring on her finger.Because fuck if I’m going to wait years for her to take my name.
Is she too young to get married?Will I be rushing her?Maybe it would be better if I gave her time to be more certain.A year?Time to settle in and learn what it means to be my submissive and my lover.
I can’t do it, though.I want everything.I want it yesterday.Now that I’ve been inside her sweet body, I’m never going to be chivalrous and suggest she take her time again.
I know she’s uncertain about what she might want to do for a job, but now she has options.One of those is to not work at all.She could take up a hobby for all I care.I have enough money to keep her beyond comfortable for the rest of her life.
Which reminds me, I need to update my will.As it stands, the beneficiary was always inevitably her since I left everything to Hendrix.He’s my best friend, and I have no relatives.Madison would have ended up with my wealth in the end, anyway.But I’ll change it so she’s listed first.I’ll do it before we’re married.
God forbid, if anything happened to me even next week, I would want her taken care of.
Madison startles me when she sighs and turns in my arms.Her eyes are wide as though she’s been awake for a while.She wiggles her sexy body closer to mine so we’re lined up from head to toe.She brings her hand to my cheek.“Myles, you need to sleep.”
I smile.“How did you know I wasn’t sleeping?”
“I could hear you thinking,” she teases.
I chuckle.“That’s not a thing, sweetheart.”
“Sure it is.You kept sighing and stiffening.You were gripping me so tightly I couldn’t breathe.”She kisses me to soften the words.
“I’m sorry.”
“You’re worrying about my dad, aren’t you?”
“Are you psychic?”
“No.It doesn’t take rocket science, big guy.”She runs her sweet hand down to my bicep.“I want you to know that I’m solidly in your court—if that’s one of your concerns.”
I frown and bring her fingers to my lips to kiss them.“I hate you being in a position like this where you may have to choose.I won’t make you choose me over him.Family is important.You and your dad have always been close.”
Lord knows I understand their bond.The reason Hendrix and I became friends in the first place was because we had a common bond: neither of us had any other family.When Madison unexpectedly entered the picture and her mother took off, our friendship didn’t waver.
“There is no choosing, Myles.It doesn’t work like that.I’m yours.He can either get on board or not.That’s his choice.If he freaks out, hopefully he’ll come around eventually.He loves me.He loves you, too.I don’t think he will lose his shit and disown both of us, even if that’s his initial reaction.I believe he’ll come to his senses in time.He’ll be awfully lonely if he cuts off the two most important people in his life simply because they decided to sleep together.”
I kiss her palm.“How did you get so wise?”
She shrugs.“I’m just being realistic.Besides, I’m an old soul.That’s why you’re attracted to me.If I were the kind of girl who spent all her time running around giggling and making poor choices, you wouldn’t see me the same.”
“If I recall”—I squeeze her fingers—“that’s exactly what you were doing last week when I picked your naughty self up from that bar—giggling and running around making poor choices.”
She rolls her eyes.“It was one time,” she quips.“Onetime.Jeez.Are you ever going to let it go?”
“No.”I push her onto her back and hover over her.“Because if you hadn’t gone to that bar, had your car stolen, and called your dad, you wouldn’t have ended up puking while I held your hair back.You never would have told me about your fantasies about submitting to me as a naughty girl if you’d been sober.”